Yes I Sat Up In the Public Library and Made This Thranduil Gif Story...And It Made Me Happy

                   Because sometimes when folks don't feel me I'm like.

And then I stop to consider because is it just me or what?

And haterz be like

And then I get my groove back because...

And finally I just have to remind myself about what's real...about the things that truly matter...

Because I am

Hallway Echoes at the Roadway Inn (*Easter 2015)

 into this life we come alone

to be fed upon myth of kin and kith and hearth and home

tis naught but a tale grown folk ought be too canny than believe

for still alone art thou comest daytime's eve

 tis no riddle 
nor glass darkly 
if you would but see:

the 

heart 

doth 

beat

that

 you 

may 

bleed

I Cannot Overstress the Importance of This Point

Keep Calm and Keep Herb In Your System

The Complexities of a Simple Life

Life will get complex as hell without your permission so keep to the basics of your personal integrity and well-being. Be flexible and allow change when appropriate. Laugh. Ask for help when you need: people may refuse you but all they can do is say no: they can't eat you (depends on what you asked for of course...)

Observations of Life Inside a Parallel Domicile Adjacent to Rock Bottom

Observations of Life Inside a Parallel Domicile Adjacent to Rock Bottom

1. Having a bad run of luck, fate, finances, health, depression etc doesn't mean you can't have a perfectly good day in an almost perfectly good mood

2. The people who help you when you are down and out are usually the people who can't afford to yet help support you anyway

3. Poor people share, rich people... not so much

4. Sometimes change that appears to be irreversibly destructive can be a blessing in disguise (Note: I have heard this nugget of optimism for years, though I always suspected it to be a foul rumour of little truth and great malice, but despite my hostility to it I now have the possession of some suggestive evidence in favor of  this hypothesis. Prior to this experience however I might have clawed someone's eyes out for suggesting such a foolish-sounding thing while  I wallowed in a rut of ill-fate, stress and deprivation. But now I declare there may be useful truth to this riddle.)

5. Blood family are not always the family members who will be around to catch you when you fall but family forged from choice and affinity tend to be there with fortitude everytime

6. When you are at rock bottom never turn down weed. 
Never ever ever ever refuse weed whilst enduring crisis at Rock Bottom

7. Find something to laugh about everyday. Even if you have to spend all your patience and a goodlyl amount of effort look for the funny things in life. A good laugh is worth as much as an earth-shattering orgasm and maybe more...

8. Just because bad shit is happening in your life it does not mean that you are a bad person who should feel bad forevermore: fight hard against any instinct to condemn yourself: you have to stay out of the rut of self-condemnation because a) it's wasteful of your precious store of energy b)entirely un-useful c) it will only perpetuate ripples of emotion that are full of self-recrimination, paranoia, and these are dangerous flirtations.

9. Like the first day of kindergarten you can make true friends at Rock Bottom. But at the same time remember that not everyone who helps you is your friend; not everyone who shits on you is your enemy; and if you are warm and happy in the shit keep your mouth shut and roll with it.

10. Do whatever you have to do, be it in the most selfish, self-protective manner but take care of your mind, energy-store, keep yourself as calm and comfortable as possible while in crisis. Don't let others force you into positions of further suffering or feelings of guilt, shame, or humiliation for practicing self-preservation/self-survival. Take care of yourself with every bit of love and devotion as a mother caring for a child: be your own love and your own lover. Protect YOU.

by Clarina Hernandez

9hr Motel Lobby Couch Musings

Art by Oscar Grafias

They'll say "How hard did you hustle? did you really dance and bustle? see, your lesson will be the victory!" 

But the journey is different for the walkers and the wicked, forsooth you did certainly contribute to your sufferings and this misfortune because you must have done something to deserve this trial, to cause you to live this as your truth. 

But if living in struggle is a captial crime then everyone of us will serve their time til the day/night comes that it be you, alone and afraid, now to crawl or stumble, to fearfully walk  that line 

They'll tell you happy platitudes and encourage you with fine chatter still you should know open hands, open hearts are few to find upon this journey and those few are the only  that matter 

It only takes one kindness to show light's love in its glorious redemption and that's the surprise that few ever mention: finding yourself peacefully back home though doubt not that most times the walk is long,lonely and bitter 

Don't Be A Strong Black Woman/Don't Survive

A Strong Black Woman is a woman who only manages to survive the more horrific encounters of life.

Don't be a Strong Black Woman.

Be a Powerful Black Woman.

Also, being rich is a big assist to Power.

Don't survive, learn to thrive.

Hustle. Hurts. Hard.

Hustling hard
Praying to God
that the answers you stay seeking
aren't the silence of a god
that doesn't exist or is too old to hear
while you're yelling so loud
that it even drowns out the fear